As I weed, edge and trim the plants, I find that the wheelbarrows are not quite as full as they used to be. The back injury of two years ago has certainly done a number on my body. I am extremely frustrated by this fact. I am tired and sore. It takes alot of time and energy and has become very hard on my physical body. I'm not sure how many more years I will be able to do the work I love to create this space. This makes me sad.
As I sit here in the special place that I have created, I ponder, is it worth it? My mind goes back to the place where the original thought of this garden took place. I had read it somewhere. "Build yourself a quiet sanctuary where you can receive from the universe".
Not knowing where to begin, but somehow knowing that it must also encompass my belief system, I went within and asked for help. It was November. Being intuitive, I am quickly introduced to a young man named Jack. (I later find out that he is the brother of a boss). Jack starts showing me a beautiful garden. He starts giving me dimentions, colors, plants.... It took a few months for me to get it all on paper. In April, my husband helped me to make it come to life. It is a circle that is 49' across. It has sections (pie) for each color. Red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet. I have placed a chair in each section to rest and allow each color, each energy, to heal me on many levels.
I have always had a difficult time quieting my mind, being still. But here, in this space, I can rest completely. I am rejuvinated. I feel the deepest part of my being now settled, still and full. The answer is most definitely yes, it is all quite worth it.
