December's List

December 12, 2013....and so the holidays are upon me. The ongoing lists of things to do, gifts to get, wrapping, mailings, baking, set up the tree and decorate the house, people to see....Feeling empty, rushed and tired. So in this moment I stop. I stop and remember Christ.

My new list:
Remember that I AM a child of God.
Send love and good wishes to my friends, family and loved ones.
Hug my husband longer.
Visit with my Dad and simply spend time with him.
Have an extra cup of tea and enjoy my cat asleep on my lap.
Stop, listen and smile when I hear the giggles of a child.
Keep the bird feeders full.
Laugh with a friend.
Do daily random acts of kindness.

Feeling refreshed, my heart happy and abundant.

Love my new list....

R.E.A.L.I.T.Y.

Realize there is more

Enlighten to your new realization

Allow new enlightenment to enter

Let love show you the way

I AM love

Thank God everyday

You have begun anew

Love Yourself

Love yourself enough to allow others to feel your beauty

The Power Of Simplicity

  Lost in my own troubling thoughts of a tough week, I go outside and wander around my yard and gardens forming that seemingly never ending list of things to do.

I head to the shed to get some tools to start my tasks when I notice this small flower next to the door. It has my attention, for whatever reason, and so I stop.

I notice it's simplicity, it's beauty. I think about the summer it has had. Long hot days in the sun. Heavy down pours and wind. Drought from my too busyness to water.

...and yet it still prospers. It is still there, just for me. I am touched by the power of it's simplicity.

Thank you, God

How I Am Connected

 How I Am Connected 

 Over the years I have struggled with things like thought, illusion, reality, separateness, all connected, all one, part of the same thing, a piece of… I have always struggled with the feeling of not being connected to anything.

I went within and asked these questions. I asked the Masters and Teachers that they somehow help me to understand. I feel separate, disconnected. How am I connected? What is my place? What is my importance in the grand scheme of things? Help me to get it, help me to understand.  

Here are the thoughts and impressions given to me..

I was shown an old piece of music. I was given the impression that it was the most beautiful symphony that was ever written. Here it was in its completeness, its totality. I was then told to look at and concentrate on one particular note… Just one. I was told that without this note, without the small individual mark on this piece of paper this complex piece, this masterpiece would be incomplete. This note was in and of itself very unique and complex although it appeared to be just a mark on the page. Without it the piece of music was incomplete. With it brought joy, emotion and love to many. It soothed souls. It encouraged, it emitted emotion, it gave hope and enlightened.

I was then told how I was that note. That one little individual mark on the piece of paper so small and common to many, but that in my uniqueness I made the whole a thing of beauty.

For the first time ever, I understood. I am unique, my gifts must shine, must sing, must come out from within, must be heard and in doing so I will help complete this masterpiece.

And so when it comes to that moment in time when my note is played I now know that I can play it with complete abandon, complete confidence. I know that I have been put in this place by the Creator Himself and my uniqueness, my gift, is to give back to Him with all of the completeness of joy, gratitude and love in which he has instilled in me.

 

Random Organization

It seems that in the randomness of the garden,
I feel the most organized....

Weightlessness

Sometimes in life, it appears that you carry heavy thoughts. You in return feel clouded, trapped and without answers.

In reality, those thoughts are weightless. We are the ones that assign them their weight.

Cut the cord. Let them float ever higher like a balloon until out of sight.

Now, take that same thought and smile knowing that the heaviness is gone. Allow your perceived reality to lighten. See it in a different light.

If allowed, the answers will begin to show themselves.

Breathe. Allow. Feel the gratitude of your new found freedom. 

Questioning Without the Words

Me: Good afternoon!

The Collective: Indeed!

Me: I have the inkling of a question, but not the full comprehension in order to put it into words.

Collective: Do the best you can.

M: But isn’t there a formula…words, emotion, vibration, etc. that I must have before asking a “big” question?

Vincent, Nicholas: There is a formula, so to speak, but it is not quite as literal as you understand it. You must put the energy into really wanting to know the answer. You must be to a point where you can openly accept the true answer…or even a piece of it. You must have this emotion/vibration/knowing energy within your heart. Please, do the best you can.

Me: There are a few parts that I don’t know how to connect.  It has to do with going within, of finding that place of total love and acceptance. That place of inner knowingness. Then the knowledge that each of us, no matter how it looks to others, is on our own spiritual path and the knowingness that I cannot control the actions of another. From there, the first feelings of assault/impact on my Being when something like 911 or Boston happen. We are all one. So should I not feel the pain? With discomfort comes growth. I have learned that to say a prayer…and feel it…for ALL involved is the right thing to do. But again, I don’t know how to connect it all.

Ramion: These are good questions and you know/understand more than you think you do. Not everything can be put into words. Sometimes, things just are. Yes, it is true that you feel the impact. How can you not? Your media is everywhere and keeps things “in your face”. Yes, it is important to report these tragedies, but they are kept out there repeatedly and those actions are self-serving. The egos involved in the media. Ratings, that exclusive interview, air time….all of which is not to the benefit of the incident and lesson itself. You have learned to have compassion and love for all of the Beings in any tragedy. This is an important step that many cannot/will not accept, and with that, you are already ahead. You know how to go within and find that compassion/love/acceptance for not only the victims, but the person that set this into motion and send that healing love out to those in need.  In doing so, you find peace quicker than most and move on.

Me: But sometimes I don’t feel that I have the compassion that I should. I mean I feel the hurt. I feel the loss, but sometimes feel as though I’ve been hardened in a way.

Ramion: Don’t confuse things.  The fact is that you are a very compassionate Being. That is proven by your sending love to all. Just because you don’t “jump on the band wagon”, doesn’t mean that you have become hardened, quite the contrary. Remember, you are a teacher. You have learned these lessons. You move on quicker, and you are there to help others learn.

Me: Thank you

Good Morning, Guys

M: Good morning, guys.

Vincent, Nicholas, Tomas, Ramion and Vav: Good morning.

M: What a beautiful day it is going to be!

Ramion: Indeed!

Me: What should we do today?

Ramion: Give thanks. Receive thanks. Show beauty. Receive beauty. Breathe in health. Breathe out negativity. Look out in wonder. Receive the wonder. Feel the lightness. Reject the darkness. Feel your heart fill with the color of your choice. Cut the cords. Embrace the wind. Let the physical things go .Go within. Show your true light. Feel the love. Love your Being.

Me: Sounds perfect!

Ramion: That, you are.

 

Sunday Night

Tough time falling asleep last night, but that is not unusual for a Sunday night. Just as I was finally starting to doze, there was a voice. A different voice. Male, and it startled me. He said " about to let one go, Gail". There was the impression of great importance in his voice. I asked him who he was and what was he letting go? He told me his name was Crow, but nothing else.

I woke up this morning with this vision....dream? I was at my parent's home. My Mom was on the phone I believe talking to my grandmother. My Dad yelled from outside to "look at the size of that snake!" We looked out the window and there was a massive tractor with and even larger trailer. Logically it did not make sense. It was wider than our house and the house across the street. As it past I knew that this snake was the Kundalini (Sp?) or earth's energy/power/light. I felt it in my Being. As it passed, I saw in It's wake past the horizon was both much beauty and devastation.

 

I don't know if these two things are connected.