I love rocks. I love stones. Always have. Always will.
As a kid, we had a big wooded hill next to and behind our house with so many different size rocks to play on. Each one would take me on another adventure from riding a horse to riding a whale. Where ever my imagination dare to go. Those of you that know me, know I have never lacked imagination. I would play with them for hours alone,      but never feel alone.
I remember taking all of my books out of my bookcase and putting them in a pile on the floor so as to have a "proper" place for my top possessions.
Rocks make me feel many things:
Happy.
Relaxed.
Calm.
Loved.
Grounded.
Powerful.
Ever hopeful.
Unconditional.
Comforted
Strong.
Peaceful.
Spiritual.
Settled.
Accepted.
Safe.
On and on, all positive.
I have a very special stone. One stone that I hold closer and encompasses all of these things. My very own touch stone. I just wish I could express this and show it more openly.
You, Lee, are my touch stone. Without you close, I sleep with the lights on.
I love you. Moah.

I just love this tree.....

Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.
                              ~ Lao Tzu 

 

A Place To Be Still

My garden.

A place to be still.

A place to hear the faint whispers of my true Being.

I sit here....

I sit here and I wish I could.  I sit here and I know I can. I sit here and I wonder why. I sit here and I wonder why not. I sit here and I dream of it, I sit here and I desire. I sit here and I am ever hopeful. I sit here and I fantasize. I sit here and nothing happens.

I stand and take a step towards it. I notice it take three steps towards me.

I Am...

 

I am a friend, and so I am friendly
I am a listener, and so I listen
I am worthy, and so I am of worth
I am trustworthy, and so I trust
I am a teacher, and so I teach
I am prosperous, and so I prosper
I am faithful, and so I have faith
I am hopeful, and so I have hope
I am wisdom, and so I am wise
I am love, and so I give love
I am….
And so, I am

Today's wisdom

  


                          Sit and be still.

                        You'll go farther.

Comprehension of Expansion

Unable to sleep, I lie there and allow my mind to wander. I ask the Spirit, the Teachers of my Universe for answers. Here is my lesson.

Picking blueberries and squash, growth.
Always being sent to the Principal's office, growth.
Some grown ups, teachers, lack of patience and understanding, expansion.
500 needed meals a day, growth.
My ex husband, much expansion.
The emergency field, much growth.
Money issues, much expansion.
Dating again, growth.
Self love, grand expantion (still).
Places I've lived, growth.
Prescription drugs, expansion.
The Aegis program, grand expansion
Ack, growth.
Loss of my Mom, grand expansion.
Management, Sporting goods, growth.
All my very dear friends, my family and loved ones throughout all of this, grand expansion.
My cats and their perfect love and acceptance, expansion.
My husband's love, my sons, K, our laughter, there are no words in the fullness of my heart.

Vibrationally I have grown beyond my comprehension. I have amassed a fortune. I am worthy. I am valid. I am of value. I am a teacher with wisdom from my vast experience in this life and I smile in grandness of it all. I smile with gratitude for the lessons.

For everything that I have experienced in this life so far, there has been so much growth and an expansion that I have difficulty comprehending it logically, but in my Being I know it to be so. I wish to thank you. For every worry. For every heart break. For every pain. For every mishap. For every cut. For every love. For life, I thank you.

  Another awesome day playing in the garden

This weekend....

  For better than a month now I have made various plans for this weekend....all have fallen through. I was going to travel and visit with a friend I've not seen in quite some time. I was even just going to visit with four friends close by. Another friend that is almost always available...not this weekend....

I believe that I am always exactly where I'm supposed to be, doing exactly what I'm supposed to be doing.

Therefore, my curiosity is at attention. What has the universe in store for me? What lessons am I to learn? What wonder will be bestowed upon me? Am I simply to rest? Have I been made/kept available for someone else's needs? So many questions. So many possibilities.

And so I take this moment to stop and avail myself to the universe. I give thanks for the lessons that are about to come. I feel that I am waiting as a child does on Christmas eve with anxiousness, awe and wonder. I am open to receive. What is behind this door?

I am going with my flow, not fighting the current which is something I've recently been made aware of.

Hmm, anticipation....

Validated

 

Validated by it's own shadow...

Perfection

 

I awaken early this Sunday morning. I get up, make myself a cup of tea and head out to sit in my garden.

I find I am creating yet another list in my head....This section really needs to be weeded. Those plants need to be cut back. I'd like to get another plant to put there. This plant must have reseeded itself and doesn't belong here.

And then I begin to hear something. It's a small voice intuitively. I stop and listen carefully, coaxing it louder so that I may hear. There it is...

"Perfection is in the imperfection"'

I notice a smile crossing my lips. I relax. I begin to take notice of the birds, chipmunks and squirrels going about their daily tasks. A butterfly's irratic flight. The rising sun's rays through the trees and the flowers dancing in the cool morning breeze and I think...

In this moment is God's perfection

My Healing Garden....My Resting Place

 

As I weed, edge and trim the plants, I find that the wheelbarrows are not quite as full as they used to be. The back injury of two years ago has certainly done a number on my body. I am extremely frustrated by this fact. I am tired and sore. It takes alot of time and energy and has become very hard on my physical body. I'm not sure how many more years I will be able to do the work I love to create this space. This makes me sad.

As I sit here in the special place that I have created, I ponder, is it worth it? My mind goes back to the place where the original thought of this garden took place. I had read it somewhere. "Build yourself a quiet sanctuary where you can receive from the universe".

Not knowing where to begin, but somehow knowing that it must also encompass my belief system, I went within and asked for help. It was November. Being intuitive, I am quickly introduced to a young man named Jack. (I later find out that he is the brother of a boss). Jack starts showing me a beautiful garden. He starts giving me dimentions, colors, plants.... It took a few months for me to get it all on paper. In April, my husband helped me to make it come to life. It is a circle that is 49' across. It has sections (pie) for each color. Red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet. I have placed a chair in each section to rest and allow each color, each energy, to heal me on many levels.

I have always had a difficult time quieting my mind, being still. But here, in this space, I can rest completely. I am rejuvinated. I feel the deepest part of my being now settled, still and full. The answer is most definitely yes, it is all quite worth it.

Orbs

 Do you believe in orbs?
This is a picture of me dancing with my son this past weekend at his wedding.

My Way

                                                                                                     


I do things my way. Right, wrong or indifferent. If I mess up, it is on me.


My mother always told me that right from the start I would listen to what I was told....then do it my way regardless of the consequences.

Through out my life, I have made many mistakes and with that have learned many lessons. Sure I could have learned the same lessons by listening to someone wiser than me...but I would not have had the experience myself.

I learn by doing.

And so I may not be of your religion. I may not believe as you do, but that doesn't mean that I don't believe.

Through my learning, through  my experiences I have become who I am. I can look in the mirror and know that the lines on my face have stories to tell. The scars on my body show deeper, personl expeirence.

The ache in my being tells me that there is more to feel, more to learn, more to become. I doubt I'll be sitting here waiting for it to just come to me. I doubt I'll be satisfied with only listening to others.

I.....learn by doing.

Belief, Hope + Faith

Belief       Hope      Faith
To me, you can't have one without the other.

Guiltless

                                                                                                                                                                      






 Lend yourself to others, but give yourself to yourself.

Michel de Montaigne