Perfection

 

I awaken early this Sunday morning. I get up, make myself a cup of tea and head out to sit in my garden.

I find I am creating yet another list in my head....This section really needs to be weeded. Those plants need to be cut back. I'd like to get another plant to put there. This plant must have reseeded itself and doesn't belong here.

And then I begin to hear something. It's a small voice intuitively. I stop and listen carefully, coaxing it louder so that I may hear. There it is...

"Perfection is in the imperfection"'

I notice a smile crossing my lips. I relax. I begin to take notice of the birds, chipmunks and squirrels going about their daily tasks. A butterfly's irratic flight. The rising sun's rays through the trees and the flowers dancing in the cool morning breeze and I think...

In this moment is God's perfection

My Healing Garden....My Resting Place

 

As I weed, edge and trim the plants, I find that the wheelbarrows are not quite as full as they used to be. The back injury of two years ago has certainly done a number on my body. I am extremely frustrated by this fact. I am tired and sore. It takes alot of time and energy and has become very hard on my physical body. I'm not sure how many more years I will be able to do the work I love to create this space. This makes me sad.

As I sit here in the special place that I have created, I ponder, is it worth it? My mind goes back to the place where the original thought of this garden took place. I had read it somewhere. "Build yourself a quiet sanctuary where you can receive from the universe".

Not knowing where to begin, but somehow knowing that it must also encompass my belief system, I went within and asked for help. It was November. Being intuitive, I am quickly introduced to a young man named Jack. (I later find out that he is the brother of a boss). Jack starts showing me a beautiful garden. He starts giving me dimentions, colors, plants.... It took a few months for me to get it all on paper. In April, my husband helped me to make it come to life. It is a circle that is 49' across. It has sections (pie) for each color. Red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet. I have placed a chair in each section to rest and allow each color, each energy, to heal me on many levels.

I have always had a difficult time quieting my mind, being still. But here, in this space, I can rest completely. I am rejuvinated. I feel the deepest part of my being now settled, still and full. The answer is most definitely yes, it is all quite worth it.

Orbs

 Do you believe in orbs?
This is a picture of me dancing with my son this past weekend at his wedding.

My Way

                                                                                                     


I do things my way. Right, wrong or indifferent. If I mess up, it is on me.


My mother always told me that right from the start I would listen to what I was told....then do it my way regardless of the consequences.

Through out my life, I have made many mistakes and with that have learned many lessons. Sure I could have learned the same lessons by listening to someone wiser than me...but I would not have had the experience myself.

I learn by doing.

And so I may not be of your religion. I may not believe as you do, but that doesn't mean that I don't believe.

Through my learning, through  my experiences I have become who I am. I can look in the mirror and know that the lines on my face have stories to tell. The scars on my body show deeper, personl expeirence.

The ache in my being tells me that there is more to feel, more to learn, more to become. I doubt I'll be sitting here waiting for it to just come to me. I doubt I'll be satisfied with only listening to others.

I.....learn by doing.

Belief, Hope + Faith

Belief       Hope      Faith
To me, you can't have one without the other.

Guiltless

                                                                                                                                                                      






 Lend yourself to others, but give yourself to yourself.

Michel de Montaigne

The Feather and the Stone

To make the right choices in life, you have to get in touch with your soul. To do this, you need to experience solitude, which most people are afraid of, because in the silence you hear the truth and know the solutions.. Deepak Chopra ♥♥♥

The Book of Meditations

Does anyone else see the silliness of this? I bought a book of meditations. I settle in and start to read...."Relax and concentrate on your breathing. Deep breaths, in and out. Now, close your eyes"............Hmmmm, jeez, how does the rest of the meditation go????

Lessons Learned

Lessons learned, well kinda, in no particular order....

-Never kiss your cat after applying a fresh coat of chap stick.

-Chickens don't like to lay down and be covered up like humans. (Come on, I was only two)

-When your Mom tells you to stay out of her nail polish, don't put your socks and shoes on when you hear her coming! Never did save those socks.

-You never know when you're making a memory for someone.

- If you make your bed sideways, you can fit more kids in it.

-Those little white gloves that Mom makes you wear to Sunday school are NOT to be used as toilet paper. (Okay, I'm really dating myself there).

-When your big brother picks on you all day, wait for him to fall asleep to punch him in the eye.

-There is a big difference between wishful thinking and regrets. Treat them respectively.

-There is nothing to fear about dying. Once you realize you've done it before, it's no big thing.

-Always have a close girlfriend.

-Husbands and fathers are "guys" not "gods". They make mistakes and that's okay.

-That lady on the street corner asking for help may be more than she seems.

-Be faithful and true...to yourself.

-Find humor in everything, especially yourself.  It's there, just look.

-There is always more to learn.

Validation

By validating someone else, you in turn validate yourself.